Back When Dancing Felt Good

I remember that perefct summer when Ewa and I would go swing dancing at Sonar. I weighed about 124 lb at the end of that summer (smaller than the size 8 I had been before). I haven't felt that healthy since. I often think if I could only go back to dancing, I would be healthier. I miss it. Maybe I also miss that last summer of hope, since I knew it would be the last like it. The summer of 2003. Has it really been three years ago? It has. The hopes that were dashed after that summer were purely of the emotional type, and I saw it coming months before it did. I can't go back to that, but can I go back to that feeling where my body functioned almost normally? Can I recapture the feeling of going through the air without a care in the world?



I wish I knew. I really don't know anymore. I'm not as healthy as I was then. My knees and ankles are more damaged. But could I do it again if I wanted it bad enough? Maybe someday soon I will find out. Or maybe I won't. Time alone will tell.